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Latest blog posts from Here And Now

Beginning
BeginningLoneliness singsoutside the window,taps on the pane.Twelve squaresseperated byhappiness that jogs bywith a ponytail.Sunrise on the beautyof a day that I'm not yeta part of.Angela Minard 2008© Read more...
Published 2 days ago

You Must Be Hungry
The other evening my husband(poor guy, he gets blamed for so much)said something that upset me. It was something that was so basic, and yet it set off all of my alarms, and you must be thinking that it was something so horrible, but no, it was this..."You must be hungry." After he said it, I... Read more...
Published 2 days ago

Onward And Upward
I'm feeling better since my last post when I was impatient with my weight, and uncomfortable with my body. I still have those feelings, but they aren't quite so overwhelming. There are going to be days when I don't feel so strong, and I need to try not to be so hard on myself on those days. Of... Read more...
Published 3 days ago

Looking For Strength Today
I'm not really sure why, but I feel very cranky and out of sorts today. It could have something to do with the fact that I was gouged by my husbands long toenails first thing this morning. It is not exactly the way I like to begin my day.(sorry honey...just being honest) I also feel very... Read more...
Published 6 days ago

Doing The Right Thing
This is the first morning in a very long time that I don't have to force myself out of the bed, waiting until the last second to sulk into the shower. I'm awake early, I've walked on the treadmill, had coffee, showered, and now even have time for some blogging! I'm doing everything that I can to... Read more...
Published 7 days ago

Unlocked
UnlockedI lock my soul up inside of your eyesin a desperate attempt to hold on toyouin a moment that should only beoursbecoming only an attempt anymoreto get away from somethingin which I cannot find the beautytheirsin all that feels dirty and laced with shameno longer able to escape in my... Read more...
Published a week ago

Albert Cummings- Long Way
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Published a week ago

A Night Of Blues
Last night, Dave and I actually went out on a "date". I can't even tell you the last time we did that, and it was really nice to get out. It was also an interesting night if you are a people watcher like I tend to be. We went to a biker bar called Knuckelheads Saloon to watch one of Dave's... Read more...
Published a week ago

If Only
If OnlyIf only I could awaken everydayfeeling this fineSimply accepting of this lifeGrateful that it is minenot always grasping for moreWhat is so much different today?Afraid that it will slip quietlyinto this sparkling skybut still...I will never know whyfor now I want to be aliveAngela Minard... Read more...
Published a week ago

Nature's Cure
Wild St. John's WortI'm feeling so much better than I was earlier in the week. My stomach problems have improved, and the results of my colonoscopy came back normal, so that was terrific news. I think that my depression has worsened some since I stopped taking the Lexapro, but I'm not willing to... Read more...
Published a week ago

Just The Blahs
I refuse to even say the word depressed to myself. I just have the blahs right now. I know why, and I know too, that they will leave if I can only give myself permission to have the feelings instead of trying to talk myself out of them. I had a severe panic attack over the weekend that left me... Read more...
Published 2 weeks ago

I Couldn't Help
Daddy's Not HereLast nightI couldn't help you with your mathTell your teacher you don't understand, I explain.So stupidShe will think I'm stupid.No.I'm the one.She will only know that I am stupid.Daddy's not here. Read more...
Published 3 weeks ago